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Thursday, 19 September 2013
Sometimes its hard to go on with life because it all seems so blurry and so meaningless. It hurts to not to enjoy what you loved the most, to always feel so empty inside, to forever be lonely even though you're surrounded by many people who loves you. =(
How I wish that they could actually see what was inside of me, how I wish they could read my mind and comfort my aching heart. But all I feel is alone in this strange situation of painful emotions and heartache. It feels as though there is something is an actual void in my heart. Once I ever knew existed. The worst thing about this is I can't even remember the last time I ever had a genuine smile and happy. Most often I break down in tears. Yes the pain was so unbearable.
I'm struggle to fake my smile, to fake my laughter and to fake who I used to be. Honestly, sometimes I do really need someone to talk to, someone to lend me a shoulder to cry on, someone who will stay beside me on whatever rough situation I had.. But the reality is though, people look at me but they never see that pain I hide inside. Am i really good at faking or people just ignore me?